Buying Love Chapter 58 Update on AO3
Buying Love Chapter 58 Update on FFn
Buying Love Chapter 58 Update on TWCS
I don’t remember the ride back to the hotel. Carlisle had
given me one of my anti-anxiety pills and a pain pill. I was numb, for which I
was eternally grateful. I needed numb. The constant pain from my injuries and
now my broken heart from Esme taking my mom, it was too much. I also felt badly
for yelling at Bella. The pain in her eyes was almost too much to bear as I
blamed her for everything.
She didn’t deserve my anger. If anything, I was the one to
blame. It was my fault that the two women I loved were in this position. Bella
was in danger because of Esme and was a walking target. My mom was an innocent
bystander and would probably be killed because of Esme’s maliciousness. If that
happened, I don’t know what I’d do.
Death sounds like a
good option.
I shook off Esme’s evil voice from my mind, encouraging me
to end it all. I couldn’t. I had to stay strong, though I didn’t have any
strength left. I was so done.
“Edward, do you want anything to eat?” Bella asked, her
voice quiet and her actions hesitant.
“I’m not hungry,” I whispered. “Just tired.”
“I can imagine,” she said, reaching for my hand. I let her
take it, but I felt guilty accepting any sort of comfort from her. My mom was
suffering because of me. I didn’t deserve anything that Bella was giving me.
Her generosity, her kindness, her love … I truly was worthless. “Edward, I can
see the hamster working in your head. Don’t go there.”
“Why not?” I asked, taking my hand back. “My mom is in this
position because of me. It’s my fault! Everything is my fault!”
“It’s not, Edward,” she said, her tiny hands taking my face.
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